Who will love me?

No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon. Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment? Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they? Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature? And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin: And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith? Matthew 6:24-30

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I was reading this blog post last night, and it broke my heart when I realized how many children I know that fit into some of these categories. Because no matter how wonderful an orphanage is the fact remains that the children inside are orphans. Children who need a mother and father, a family of their own to love them.

Micah Six Eight: The List: This list is for all those brave souls who have come to a place when they realize that there is room at their table for another.   Th...

Today was our day at Maria Campi, it was good to go and see the children there! They all came running up to give us hugs and kisses! They make you feel so special, my hope and prayer was that I would make them feel special today too! So I spent the morning, pushing a teeter-totter up and down, pushing swings, holding hands, wiping faces, tickling, tying shoes, taking children on and off the trampoline, serving and cleaning up food, helping children climb, slide, pushing the merry-go-round, and all those little things. But some how it was so fulfilling and it felt like there was nothing more important that I could possibly be doing! I have fallen in love with all these children too! But today I saw them with different eyes, I seen the behaviors on the list, I seen them trying to hide their pain, I seen them trying to get the attention they are lacking, I heard them calling me mama, why? Because they found someone who cares and they always dreamed of having a mama who cared about them. They have hopes and dreams, but they can't fulfill them! They are crying out for someone to notice them, but the only one that comes to their aid is another orphan, offering what comfort they can. They are so independent, they can eat on their own before they are two, they hurry up and eat before another child comes and steals their food, they can put on their own shoes, clothes, defend themselves, but yet they need someone to teach them which shoe, goes on which foot, they need someone to teach them how to play with toys, they need someone to teach them how to pump their swing, they need someone to teach them how to be a child..... not one that has to kick and scream for attention! But a happy, playful, carefree child. They need to know that someone will make sure they get enough to eat, they need to know that someone thinks they are special, they need to know that someone will always love them, they need to know someone will make sure they have toys to play with. All these children..... with no one......who will be their someone?

Today as I seen children that don't talk, but cry......
broken toys everywhere......
children just holding toys.....
children taking food from other children.....
children not eating.....
children throwing things.....
children fighting.....
I could have just cried! They are only children, so much like children, yet they don't know what its like to be a child, to have a mom, dad, sibling, they only feel an emptiness that they don't know how to fill.

After the mid-morning snack I went and helped in the kitchen, washing dishes in cold water, chopping onions, making meat patties, sweeping, and washing more dishes. I didn't feel like washing dishes in the cold "amoeba" water and Natasha and I call it, did much good, especially dishes that had raw meat in it, but it was better then the person that drank from a cup, rinsed it and placed it in the drainer....cleanliness is not a huge priority, these children must have immune systems of steal! I smashed boiled garlic with a stone (I had no idea what I was doing! that was definitely new to me, but so are a lot of things that seem normal here), earning the complement that I am now ready to get married! O joy! So after lunch, clean-up and all the children were down for their naps we headed for the bus, and to find a taxi that isn't trying to rip us off! Sometimes we have to hail 3 or more taxi's to find a reasonable one! This morning we saved over $5 one way! That more than paid for our way back too! We are getting the taxi's figured out too! :)

This afternoon I was back at the office! Scanning, scanning, scanning, but I felt a little more productive this time! I was able to get 3 folders done in 1 1/2 hours! But it all depends on how fast the computer is going...so tomorrow might not be the same.

I ran to the store and bought strawberries for dinner as a surprise for Natasha!! I was so proud of myself! :) I know its not that hard to buy strawberry's but I actually talked and didn't just point and gesture!

So after feeding a few babies we came home to make this supper we have had planning for awhile!

Bacon!! I have been craving some meat, but bacon here looks really pathetic, so I found some beef bacon that looked much better! It didn't taste to much like bacon but it tasted like beef and I was happy!

 My make shift apron.....

Then there were the potatoes, we have not had much for potatoes so it was hard to decide what to do with them! But we finally settled for potato pancakes!

Natasha did an amazing job of frying them! We put lots of cheese in them! :)

Tada.....

Here we go....we put salsa, sour cream and cheese on our potato pancakes, they were amazing! Earning me another compliment....our landlady came in while we were eating and said, it always smells so good after you girls are done cooking! Brianna, you are a good cook, you would make a wonderful wife for my grandson, your sweet, nice, thoughtful and have a pretty face too!

O another joy....