I am waiting...somewhere far, far away....on the other side of this world. I may not know who you are or what you look like,
But somehow, deep in my heart, I know you will come and find me.
It's a long journey, and it takes a lot of time.
I wish I could make it easier.
But I know that the ones who come for me will not count the cost. They will only see the joy of finding me.
For now, I abide in the fields of the fatherless.
Day by day wondering, "Why was I born here and not somewhere else?" Asking, "Why couldn't my life have been different?"
It is so lonely....
Even though I am surrounded by hundreds of other children, I know that something is missing.
I know in my heart I need a place to call home.
My arms long to be wrapped in a father's embrace...
I long to be saved by a mother's love.
Gazing out the orphanage window, I offer a prayer of hope, "Oh God, please help them come quickly."
Even as I lay in the darkness each night somehow I feel assured. That no matter how lost I appear, I am not alone.
Holy hands guard my steps and sacred fingers wipe my tears.... Touching my lonely heart.The One who made me, the God who knew me before I was born, Hears me every time I call, He whispers his promises in my ear.
I listen with hope to His voice.
But what I worry about most is that no one wants to look for me. The fields are vast, and there are so many scattered all over the earth. I wonder how one little child, so lost, can be found.
Yet He calms my heart and assures me that He will find you.
That He will make sure you hear His voice clearly,
He has promised me that He will make a way through the fields,
That he will personally cut a path, and lead you right to my orphanage door.
My prayer is...When He speaks, please don't forget to listen, When He calls, don't be too afraid to go...
For I am waiting....somewhere far, far away.
Author Unknown
My last day in Ecuador....crazy...surreal....
As sad as today was it was also joyful! I'm so thankful God brought me here! As I looked around I seen memories everywhere, people, places, and most of all children that I have grown to love! I'm leaving but I will take a piece of it all back home with me to live in Wisconsin....
I thank my God upon every remembrance of you, Always in every prayer of mine for you all making requests with joy, For your fellowship in the gospel from the first day untill now; Being confident of this very thing, that He which hath begun a good work in you will perform it untill the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:3-6
haha Buenas Dias to you to!
Waiting for Breakfast....just like my first morning with them....but wow have things changed!
love that cheese!
Babies, Babies, Babies...
Still adorable....still stealing my heart....
But the clock kept ticking so pretty soon I headed down to Casa Harlow to say goodbye to the first tias that were getting off shift...so I played with the children as I was waiting to say goodbye....Miss A come up to me with her Bible and plops on my lap... So I open it up to Lucas 1:37 and read "Porque ninguna cosa será imposible para Dios." Then I told her that I am praying her family comes soon, she looked at me with a big smile and said, "for me?" The tears started rolling.....yes for you! She looked at me and asked, "why are you crying?" The flood came....because I'm very sad....Why are you sad...because I'm leaving and I'm going to miss you very much! But I'm praying your family comes soon, that would make you very happy wouldn't it? Her smile lit up her face! Si! So then we read our verse and I tried to stop the tears, but they couldn't stop. I'm going to miss this little girl so much! I think she might miss me too....
So once the tears had started for the day, there was no stopping them! So I said goodbye to two tias then headed back up to the baby house for the rest of the morning...
I adore this little guy...
This one has my heart!
Princess!
I love these ladies in Blue!
You're going to leave??
So I enjoyed one last dip in the pool with my splashing buddy! The morning was amazing! I enjoyed every moment, every last, every tear. Because maybe the tears say what I can't....how much these people and this place has come to mean to me!
I was suppose to work on packing this afternoon but I had to call Natasha to give her one last update..... well I'm at it, I might as well give you one!
The little baby that is in the hospital is doing much better! She is on very little oxygen and prayerfully will be coming home at the end of the week.
The little boy that went home with his mother over a month ago, is in the same hospital and is very sick with pneumonia and I'm not sure what else. They said, he is very skinny and sick. Please pray for him and his mother.
And my landlady is cleaning my room and trying to move me out before I actually leave....really can't you just wait until tomorrow??
So I headed to the office and finished up what I wanted to get done there....said my goodbyes....
Then I headed down to play with the older children...each one has become so special to me! They finished up my M & M's for me too!
The queen...
The two sweethearts!
Yum! Yum!
She is one sweet, beautiful little girl!
Full of energy, smiles and fun!
So after a few more goodbyes on shift change I went back up the babies to help with a last couple of bottles and to start my goodbyes to the children.
They were all having so much fun! I tried to be brave for them...really do they need to see my tears?
I'm going to miss this little guy a lot too! He is so much fun!
Sweet little girl!
She does walk too!
Goodbye to the babies....
Yes, I sobbed...this little guy has come to mean the world to me! I pray he gets a wonderful family!
This one may be getting one very soon..
Can I have one too?
This little girl has changed so much!
This one can sit up now!
So I cried my way through these sweet goodbyes...
I'm so torn saying goodbye, I want to stay here with them, and yet, I don't want them to stay here at all! I want them to all go to families and homes. To grow up knowing where they belong, being taught about the Lord Jesus Christ.
This is the orphanage guard and his right hand man!
Tias!
I can't believe I am really saying goodbye....it's so hard to believe. I know I am leaving but it still doesn't seem real!
So then I had to go say goodbye to the older children. They were eating supper so I tried to make it as quick and cheerful as possible! A quick kiss, but the tears were still welling up then Miss A threw her arms around me and held on to me...tears spilt...I never thought three months ago that I would be leaving behind this little girl who has become like a sister to me....God please, please make her part of my family...it just doesn't seem complete without her anymore....
This evening Tanya, Kathrine and Sebastian had a nice little goodbye dinner for me....I can't believe this time it was my turn...we had fresh pineapple! and my all time favorite....PIZZA! Its was delicious and Kathrine made red velvet whoopie pies! We played a game and one question was...what is one trait you would like from each person....it was a hard question....but it was so great to think about, and a blessing to tell others things you admire in them and in turn to hear what others think of you. Often times its not what you would think and its encouraging! I think I need to point out these things in others more and be more of an encourager! So we had to take a few photos to end the evening....
I was suppose to put it on timer....but accidently took one right away...haha its great!
Here we go! I have blessed very much by these people! I'm so thankful for them and the part they have each had in my time here.
Just for fun!
Ok its my last night here....we had to do something crazy...
As I left the orphange tonight and walked down the street one last time....I enjoyed the air, the sky, the walk, my last night in Ecuador....
the barb wire fences...this one was an accident....buts its so Ecuador!
The city lights....
So here I am finishing up! I'm almost packed up now I just need to get a little sleep before I get up and start the journey home.... thats what it is...a journey and we never know what God has waiting on the other side...
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